I Really Have Nothing to Say

It's true. Other than ranting about the state of the world, the state of national politics, and the general assery (I made that word up but I like it) of a good chunk of the people I see around me on a daily basis (can you guess what kind of a mood I am in?) I have nothing of use to share with you, or me. I do know that mostly I am simply talking to myself here, but at least it gives me someplace to let it go. I am drowning in what feels like a sea of grant applications, but is sadly only one at the moment. The fast approaching deadline makes it feel much larger. Can one application be a sea? I am feeling anxious to get started on my fieldwork but even best-case scenario that can only happen several months into the spring. I am trying to distract myself with fun reading, ridiculously long runs, chocolate cakes, and knitting but it isn't really working. I want to be doing something productive. I want a job that matters. I want..........something more. Any ideas? Any at all? Let me know.